Never Gonna Fall In Love Again

Something snapped me out of a dream that I was having
I'd falled down an elevator shaft but now I'm back again
Tidying up after the fight we had
Happy with yourself?
Well, you've never looked so satisfied
Teasing me with stuff like a spolit little brother
You finished yet?
Have you got what you really want?

Snow Patrol

* * *
As a friend says, some people are better to loose than to find.

Relief

Today was the last day for the semester of the photo course I'm taking. I handed in a folder with the exercises I did. The photo above is in it.
At the same time I'm glad I'll have vacation, because I really need to rest a bit, I'm anxious about starting the second part. I've been told it will be a totally different rhythm.

Loro

What a stressful (work!) end of the year. I'm looking so forward to the holidays.
My friend from Berlin left today and in 10 days a friend from Amsterdam is coming. He'll do the same "tour" I did with another German friend who visited me last year. Christmas in the country side with family and New Year's Eve on the beach seeing the fireworks. I'll probably also make him jump seven waves. ;)

Tomorrow, I'll hand in the final work for my photo course. I wish I had done somethings differently, but all in all, I'm glad about it.

Come back, kids

I need more weekends like the last one.
Great people and great shows.

feeling weak

I wish some things wouldn't hurt so much.

Guest

A friend from Berlin is visiting me.

Weekend

I had such a nice weekend with friends. On Saturday, I visited São Paulo's Pinacoteca. It's such a beautiful building with nice expositions (I saw wonderful black & white photos from Salvador in the 30's). It has a nice park to walk around and a café with a great coffee with cream.
On Sunday, I did a small photo tour in some areas downtown. First, we went to Mercado Municipal, that's big market with lots of different fruits and friendly people. We used the chance to practice taking portraits. After that, we went to Minhocão. That's actually an ugly bridge I see every day, as it's close to work. But on Sundays, it's closed for cars and it's crowded with people jogging, walking, biking and photographing as well.

What inspires you?

For sometime (much longer than I wish it was), I feel I have a lack of inspiration concerning photography. I'm still excited about it, I'm enjoying the course I'm taking, I have lots of fun taking photos at hardcore shows, but I feel like I used to be more creative. In my daily life, I used to notice much more things that would result in a cool photo. I know there is still so much to photograph just around me, but I feel like I just don't see those things. I know there are some blank periods, but mine is lasting way too long.
The crazy life I've been living plus some ups and downs play a big role in this. But I can't let it take over. So, another note to myself, tomorrow, I've got to leave home with my camera and try to really see things, not just look at them.

P.S.: Today I got a photo zine via post and it made my day. I was so happy when I saw it in my mailbox and the smile just got bigger as I checked the photos. Thanks to Jason Vaughn.

Note to myself

Bury the past.

Nudity and flowers

Today, I had my first session with a naked model. I was quite nervous before. I don't have experience with studio, I wanted to be creative and I couldn't take too long because other people had to shoot as well. But it went quite fine.
Next shooting at photo course will be flowers. After today, that should be a piece of cake.

So many things, so little time

Sometimes, I wish days would have more than 24 hours. I've got so many things to do: homework (German and French), selecting photos (as reference for next classes and my photos from shows for my semester project), get photos printed, writing some texts, writing a book (my final project for post-graduation course that I haven't even started and it's due until December).
I'll manage everything. I have to!

Je veux te voir

As I just had two French classes so far, I don't understand her lyrics very well. But I read about them and, because my mother tongue is Portuguese, I get some of the words. They are quite dirty. But she's funny, has a nice voice and the songs are cool.
It was worth getting home stinking (people smoked way too much in the venue) and going to bed just at 3 am (after washing and drying my hair). She rocks!

Os Desafinados

I'm not a fan of bossa-nova. Not at all. But, despite that, I went to the movies to see Os Desafinados.
To be honest, it's interesting in the beginning, but gets boring after a while.

Swedish Invasion in São Paulo

It was great yesterday!!!
Shout Out Louds
and
Peter Björn and John



And there is more today:
Club 8

a link to check

For the ones who like photography, I added a link to the blog of my photography teacher, Felipe Russo. There are very nice images he did and lots of information about photographers and cool works.
Yesterday we saw some nice images during the class and now I really want to photograph more. I just wish I had more time.
And the photo above was taken for a newspaper I used to do at college in 2003.

Edit: It's a pity when someone can't separate his professional life from his personal one.
17.11.2008

T.H.E.H.I.V.E.S.

After seeing The Hives in Germany (I went to the festival to see Die Ärzte) I really got into the band. So, I was quite happy when I found out they were playing São Paulo a couple of weeks after I came back. I saw them again last Saturday and it was a great, great show. I hope I'll be lucky enough to see them again any time soon. I just wish I could had taken some photos, but I have no small camera and my SLR wasn't allowed inside without a press pass.

München

I want to write a bit more about my vacation, but I haven't had much time to sit down and focus.
The photo above is from Marienplatz, in Munich. And it also shows the towers from the Frauenkirche.
It was my first time in Munich and I was surprised to find out it's smaller than I imagined. I always hear so much about it and it's definitely one of the most important cities in Germany. So, I expected more than only 900 thousand inhabitants. In one afternoon, I had walked whole downtown.
The city has really beautiful buildings and it's so clean. But some people are quite stuck-up.
Other photos from the city are here.

The persians

Last Saturday I saw a theater play with the text from a German company. Even though I know there is a big German community in São Paulo (including a German school on my street), I definitely wasn't expecting the play would be totally in German, with subtitles.
It was interesting.

"Write our own books"

"So if no hope is given to us we’ll have to create it ourselves. If the tools of rebellion for sale aren’t really rebellious we will make them. We’ll start our own bands to inspire, write our own books to educate and we’ll build our own movements to lift us out of out of the artificial “outside”. There is a tremendous importance in doing this not only for us, but also for the people who border on being truly hopeless. Solidarity starts when we realize that we have the potential to be there for someone else, and with that only creativity sets the limits. The same means that are used to describe loneliness can also be used to instill togetherness, and to use those means in a way that matters is our responsibility".

Take from the website from The (International) Noise Conspiracy.

Bärlin

The first time I was in Berlin I was kind of shocked. People shouting on the street and drunk men in the subway was totally not expected. It was winter and the city was gray and I didn't do that much.
Second time, it was summer but a cold and rainy one. And once again, I didn't do that much, but I started enjoying the city a bit more.
This year I fell in love with Berlin. I don't really know how to explain it, but I guess it's because this time I finally got the chance to explore it a bit more. I visited places where I hadn't been before and I met good people. And I want to go back.

São Paulo is jroos. Wa?

The photo above was taken when I was arriving back home. As lots of people asked me during the trip how big São Paulo is, I thought a photo would be worth. There are about 11 million people living just in São Paulo. There are other cities around (everything is called Big São Paulo) and they must have about 20 million inhabitants together. São Paulo has 1.509 km2 and 1.000 km2 are urban areas.

About the title: Berlinerisch is one of my favourite German dialects. It means: São Paulo is big, isn't it?

Zurück

I'm back in Brazil. The flight was fine and I'm just tired.
Tomorrow is working day for me and I don't look forward for it.

verliebt in berlin

While I don't upload the photos from this year's trip, here is one taken in Berlin last year. And nope, I didn't do a Trabi Safari.

deutschland

i'm enjoying my last days of vacation.
i wasn't expecting much of this trip, but it turned out to be very good. i met friends (and i realized how many good friends i have here) and i met new cool people. so, far, i've been in frankfurt, saalfeld, jena, weimar, magdeburg (where i am right now, again), berlin, munich and nuremberg.
next wednesday, at this time, i'll be at work. the days passed faster than i thought they would.
i'll upload some photos on flickr when i'm back home.

procrastinating

I should be writing a paper right now. I should had started it at least.
I'm leaving on Friday to Germany and I haven't even started packing.
Bad girl.

changes

It's less than two weeks until I'll travel and I'm totally reorganizing my trip.
I have to learn do deal better with the fact that life isn't as certain as I want it to be.

nostalgia

Once I singed in a band. We were six girls and it was called One Day Kills.
The band was just a hobby, but we played some cool shows in Curitiba, Joinville, Rio de Janeiro, Cabo Frio and the Hardcore Festival in São Paulo, that was the biggest hardcore show back then.
The last show was in January 2002, and after that one of the girls moved to another city and the band was over because we knew it wouldn't be the same with someone else.
We even had two demo tapes very badly recorded. I have none left and it's a pity.
Some months ago, I got a request on myspace to add the band's profile. And the website is still online. hehe
I really had a good time back then.

Ouch - Part II

So, my second wisdom tooth is gone and I'll have a break from at least one year until the next surgeries. This time, it didn't hurt as much as before to remove it, although I heard some scary noises. But when the anesthesia was losing its effect, it hurt and I needed to take two painkillers.

Now, I'm on an ice-cream diet again. It's not so cool as it sounds because the weather is quite cold.

I always say the world seems to be such a small place sometimes. The dentist who did the surgeries is my friend's professor at a very important hospital here in São Paulo.

i already miss it

the weekend ended too fast.
good people, good place, good food.

Festa Junina

This is the time of one of my favourite typical parties. I guess I can translate it as Junish Party. The food is great with lots of candies made from peanuts, popcorn and corn. I just love it. There is a bonfire and lots of colour. This part can a bit exaggerated, but I still like it.
The music is not my cup of tea, but the typical dance is funny. It tells the story of a marriage. The girl got pregnant and the father forced the guy to marry. Telling it like this, doesn't sound so funny. But there is the bride, the groom, the priest, the girls father and the guests.
I danced it twice in my life. In kindergarten and at my last year in high school. The second time, the girls dressed as boys and vice-versa. Our Geography teacher was the bride.
In the northeast of Brazil, these parties are huge.

Unfortunately, i have no photos. I need to go to one of these parties soon. But you can have an idea here.

Life sign post - dedicated to Monka

My days are quite hectic. Work is taking lots of my time (but this is actually normal) and because of the classes I'm taking, I have to prepare some good project to hand in until the middle of July.
Today, I got a paper to enroll for next semester. No more classes to attend, but a final paper to write.

I'm just a bit upset because Poison The Well is playing São Paulo in August and I won't be here.

Student life

I had the first class from my last subject for the post-graduate course I take on International Journalism. The professor is great and I'm very excited about the next classes.
It's been two years since I started this course and it's incredible how time flies. After June will be over, I'll still have to write my final paper, but I hope I'll be done with it until December.

Mach die Augen zu - die ärzte

Mach die Augen zu und küss mich
und dann sag das du mich liebst.
Ich weiß genau es ist nicht wahr,
doch ich spüre keinen Unterschied,
wenn du dich mir hingibst.

Mach die Augen zu und küss mich
mach mir ruhig etwas vor.
Ich vergesse was passiert ist
und ich hoffe und ich träume,
ich hätt dich noch nicht verloren.

Es ist mir total egal,
ob du wirklich etwas fühlst.
Tu was du willst!

Mach die Augen zu und küss mich
ist es auch das letzte Mal.
Lass uns den Moment des Abschieds noch verzögern,
lass mich jetzt noch nicht allein mit meiner Qual.

Mach die Augen zu und küss mich
mach mir ruhig etwas vor.
Wenn du willst kannst du dann gehen,
aber denk dran ohne dich, ohne dich
bin ich verloren.

Es ist mir absolut egal,
ob du nur noch mit mir spielst.
Tu was du willst!

ouch

I had a wisdom tooth removed today. It was quite painful and a bit more difficult than my dentist expected. My tooth had three roots and there was some bone in the way.
Next month I'll have the second surgery.

Himmelblau - die ärzte

Der Himmel ist blau und der Rest deines Lebens liegt vor dir
Vielleicht wär es schlau, dich ein letztes Mal umzusehen
Du weiβt nicht genau, warum - aber irgendwie packt dich die Neugier
Der Himmel ist blau, und der Rest deines Lebens wird schön, yeah

Du hast ein gutes Gefühl, du denkst an all die schönen Zeiten
Es ist fast zu viel, jetzt im Moment neben dir zu stehen
Du hast kein klares Ziel, aber Milionen Möglichkeiten
Ein gutes Gefühl - und du weiβt, es wird gut für dich ausgehen, yeah

Der Himmel ist blau

Die Welt gehört dir: Was wirst du mit ihr machen?
Verrat es mir - spürst du, wie die Zeit verrinnt?
Jetzt stehst du hier und du hörst nicht auf zu lachen
Die Welt gehört dir - und der Rest deines Lebens beginnt, yeah

Der Himmel ist blau, so blau, so blau...

I really can't wait for my vacation to start. Until then, my days will be quite busy. And I have to start with a paper about Economic Journalism. So not exciting.

There is a lovely café at the top of a building on Paulista Ave. Because of the centenary from the Japanese immigration, during the holiday, they had lots of activities related to Japanese culture. And the café got a new lovely decoration.

My holiday was nothing special. I watched a few movies and slept a lot. I also took a little walk and did some photos like the one above.

108

108 at Fluff Fest 2007.

108 played São Paulo last night and it was an incredible show. Their show is pure energy.
Rethink also played. They existed from 1997 until 2001 and was one of the first bands I saw when I started going to gigs.
It was also nice to meet some people I haven't seen in a long time.

hi

"ich brauch nur etwas Ruhe, das wär nicht schlecht."

die ärzte